Reflections.
It's been weeks of countless thoughts. Intentional ones.
I have thought hard and long about some things. Some took days, some took weeks, and some took hours.
I have also incorporated slow living too.
It’s like I am in an abyss and I have to keep going deep and deep into it. I can’t see any light ahead but I keep walking. It’s dark but I think I am going to find the light soon if I keep searching.
And maybe, that’s you. You are like me searching for answers. Digging deep into your past, asking questions, digging deep into why you are some way or why some things are happening to you.
Maybe you need some answers so bad. Me too. But I heard a quote and I’ll share it here.
Keep digging. Go into the abyss, keep going further, you will find what you seek for it seeketh you.
Yes. What you seek is seeking you. Don’t stop asking questions. Don’t stop asking “WHY”. Know thyself and you only get to know yourself and why you are the way you are, why you do what you do, why you respond some type of way, why you exhibit some certain characters.
Knowing yourself will help you get farther than others in life. You get to stand out from others. We all are made of evil and good. When you start getting answers bit by bit, you start to see the evil and good you are made of. You also get to accept some things you can’t change, you get to learn how to manage some and you get to change the rest. It’s a long journey.
I have come to accept some things about me. I am also learning to forgive myself on some mistakes I made in the past, y’know giving myself grace as I have given people.
Welcome to the abyss. Have a great and long time finding yourself. Trust me, you will save people a lot of stress as well as you.
Consumptions this week:
Watching: I watched more of Jordan Peterson’s videos, videos on how to study, videos on coding, videos on self development, videos on maths and lots of tiktok. My tiktok consumption spanned around fashion, style, building yourself as a woman, hygiene and elegance, then some random videos. Then I watched videos on finance and economics too.
Reading: Hmmmm, didn’t read much except my academic books. And few newsletters then a lot of tweets.
Discussions: I had discussions with myself most of the times. Just how my childhood was, how I got to where I am, how everything happening to me and for me. I talked with my parents more this past weeks, I thought about them a lot and had conversations in my head about them, y’know how they have been of a good support to me. I had to tell God that yeah…these guys are doing a great job and I am a spoilt child. Lol.
Artists I listened to last week: Hmmmmm, I lost track. I listened to more of Podcasts, podcasts on being a god, tapping into the divinity of myself as a goddess, podcasts on correcting some characters too.
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=aDoIfZXByHs&si=xYd-sUOHFcoPz-Mv
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=BSBXLH9j0YE&si=JYwBoWLoS8hV1ptj
Talk soon,
Pronouns - goddess-Odili.